Ordered up some more OPKs!
One good thing about a new cycle of TTC: Lots of BDing!!! Watch out husband. ;)
I’m so sorry. Will you go to the Dr after this month?
I have one more full cycle to complete before the doctor will see me. :( So if I ovulate like normal (around June 3rd-5th) and AF shows up AGAIN in late June, then she will see me. I have no idea what she will look for?!?! I ovulate on my own and my luteal phase is of normal length. I have no idea what else could be preventing us from conceiving on may end??
I hope it isn’t my hubby’s little swimmers! He has 100% medical coverage through the VA and he is on the waiting list for a referral to the urologist for a sperm analysis. Everything takes so long through the VA!!
Moving On
To month 11 and cycle 9. AF showed this morning.
And these stats are only since my MC. If we go waaaaaaayyyyyy back to when hubby and I decided we wanted a baby and went off of birth control (February 2010), we are now starting month 28.
Thanks, snugglebunny822! Here’s my chart.
Still no AF, but so far my temps have never lied to me. :-(
Well, I tried to post today’s chart, but photobucket isn’t cooperating with me today.
Temp is down more than yesterday, so I guess I am waiting for AF to arrive. Technically she is a little late. I usually spot late in the afternoon at 12DPO, then she is in full force overnight and in to 13DPO.No spotting yesterday at all and still nothing as of right now.
The only positive that I can take from another failed cycle is that I am only one cycle away from my doctor running tests on me. I am still surprised that she made my one year of TTC start at over again at my miscarriage rather the ACTUAL one year mark, but I have an HMO, so whatever she says goes. I re-read the info on the baby center website and it says that it takes a normal couple an average of 1 year to conceive WITHOUT all the extras of charting, temping and OPKs, just having sex. So that does worry me a little because I have been doing all of these things since the first cycle after the MC and nothing. :(
My coworker will be induced on June 1st. Even though she is a surrogate and she isn’t actually having her own baby, it will be very hard for me. Gotta find something to stay busy!!
Hubby and I want to start volunteering at a local animal rescue nonprofit. We would like to help clean kennels, bathe and walk the dogs. We have always donated supplies, food, bedding, treats, toys and money in the past. Mostly because I am a crazy couponer and I get tons of stuff for very cheap or free and it is too much for our doggies, so I donate it. If I only I could win the lottery one day, so I can save more lives. :( Anyway, I’m looking forward to starting this!
i honestly think you need to stop temping. it obviously stresses you way out and a stressed out wife is fun for no one. why don’t you guys plan a vacation (LONGER THAN 3 or 4 DAYS, FOR CHRISTSAKE)? i know having a baby is urgenturgenturgent, but if it stops being fun,…
Sorry, but I won’t stop temping or using OPKs. My hubby takes certain meds that really interfere with his libido. He is truly making some sacrifices with his own comfort and well being for us to TTC, so knowing the exact time to BD is very important. As you see from my chart, our BD is not very frequent except during ovulation. However, I was thinking about stopping temping after I confirm ovulation! Because that’s all I really need is to confirm that it happened! So I will compromise on your advice, I will stop temping after O is confirmed from now on!
Regarding me being a stressed out wife: This is why I have this blog!!! I let everything out that I need to here and not with my hubby. Not that I can’t talk to him about these things and all the things that make me crazy, but I think it is better for us if I take on the heavier load, I can handle it better than him.
My husband works commission. He rarely has a vacation. Not because we don’t have savings to cover his lost wages, but if he does no work, his boss also loses HIS half of the money too. He also has to take at least a half to one full day off every week for medical appointments and tests. Like I said, medically he has his own issues right now, so his “vacation” time is being used up by taking 50 days or so off per year for doctors appointments.
I truly appreciate your concern and I can tell by your words/voice (it’s like I can hear you talking to me!!) that you are concerned and that makes me feel good, thank you!
Wow, blindsided.
I seriously didn’t see this one coming.
I usually know when AF is going to arrive because the fullness and soreness in my breasts fades away, but they are still sore right now!
On Monday my hubby asked me, “So, when do you expect your period?” I lied and said on Saturday, even though it should be here tomorrow. I wanted to buy myself some time because we will most likely go out on Friday or Saturday night to dinner and to see the WTE movie. I wanted to give him his birthday gift and a BFP test that night. His bday is Tuesday the 22nd. I can’t believe that I have had this little onesie now for almost 9 months and still haven’t been able to give it to my hubby.
I am at the point where I do not feel excited about any of this anymore. I used to always hold on to some small amount of hope and I would try to justify things that were negative. Like a temp drop late in my LP: Oh, I just implanting really late, I could still be pregnant! I don’t have the energy to try to convince myself to hold on to any glimpse of hope any longer. I feel tired and defeated.
Why am I scared?
I have no idea! I am so fearful of testing this cycle. I guess have been wanting that BFP for so long, that I’m afraid of what happens when I finally get it!?!
My co-worker, the surrogate, well gestational carrier, for a gay couple in France is being induced on June 1st. My boss is acting like it is a total surprise, like he hasn’t been watching her being pregnant for 9 months!
It is making me nervous about how he would react to my pregnancy. I will be out for much longer than her, well, because I am actually going to HAVE the baby! Haha. She will just need time to recover and she plans to be back at work ASAP.
Second, My job is much more demanding and stressful than hers. I process 5-10 times more work than her in any given day.
Lastly, if I am pregnant this cycle (or within the next 3 cycles) I will be due during tax season. Obviously, not the best timing, but I couldn’t just stop trying for these three months?!?! After having a miscarriage, I do not want anything standing in my way of my BFP, tax season or not! I have also worked here for almost ten years. I have given my life to this company. I am here every damn day. I eat lunch at my desk and usually take calls during my lunch too. I don’t take any vacations longer than a 3-4 day weekend and I work from home consistently without pay. I am an hourly employee, so I would go in to OT and OT isn’t authorized during non tax season.
I secretly hope that because of all of this. my boss will bend the rules slightly for me regarding working from home and even considering the possibility of me bringing the baby with me one day a week during my 6 weeks “off”. We have three separate suites in this building and my suite has no client access and a separate entrance, so no one would see me.
I know thinking about this when I am not even pregnant yet is jumping the gun a little, but I can’t help it!
